schmu

going to see ryan's band tonight...survey: is this a good thing or a bad thing?
Saw him on wed night and had really no reaction, bad or good. it was more of a "i've moved beyond you and you can't seduce me with your sparkling wit anymore" type of thing. Except maybe not so much sparkling wit. So why, when I heard his phone message tonight, did I listen to it twice? And why did I immediately say I wanted to go?
He's still a punk boy and I'm still a silly too-quick-to-emotion girl.
I'm still going to go. I have to prove to myself that I can get him out from under my skin. Six months is far too long to be under someone's spell and not get anything for it. All hail the triumph of Lauren's logical side...Rah! Rah!
Wish me luck...