Wednesday, June 05, 2002

Well, it certainly wasn't any sort of premonition, just an educated guess, but when I said that my attendance at funerals had only just begun with my grandma's, I didn't expect the next to be so soon! My grandpa passed away yesterday. So Friday I will be at my second funeral of the month. I don't know...like with my gramma, I didnt' really feel anything until the actual service, and I think it will be the same this time too. I don't really feel anything but worn out right now. Worn out of thinking about mortality and other such things. Once I get outside and feel alive again, young and healthy, I think the feeling will pass. But it's so hard to know what to say and do and how to be.